Complaining

Last week two of my friends and I started meeting regularly together for a Bible study of a book called "Lord, Change My Attitude: Before Its Too Late" by James MacDonald. This week the lesson is about complaining.


I have to tell you getting through this week without complaining just has not been possible for me, so consider this another…complaint about complaining. Ha! Ha!
Seriously, it has been a very eye opening experience as I've been working through the workbook!!! I will tell you that this week God used a co-worker to open my eyes about my complaining attitude that I didn't see in me. It was quite shocking!


My co-worker basically told me that when I'm at work and behind my desk/computer, filling my role and duties as Admin Supervisor in the Accounting Department, that I'm so different and not someone pleasant to be around because of my attitude. When I'm away from my desk I am great to be around! Then it got me thinking a lot!!!! I had to really reflect and process this.


I was kind of depressed about it at first as I processed it and then I chose to thank God for showing it to me and the next day I thanked her for being honest and telling me the truth. I told her I needed to hear it even though it wasn't pleasant and that I want Jesus to be seen in me no matter which side of the desk I’m on.


Bottom line....I don't deal well with stress and it shows! Its embarrassing because I’ve really been bold in witnessing to my office co-workers and here I am finding another area that can only change through the grace and power of Christ in me. I cried out to God and said, "Jesus I want you to be seen in me whether I'm behind the desk or on the other side of it".


As I was thinking about this and praying, the title of a song I hardly know came to my mind, "Jesus, take the wheel", a song written by Brett James, Hillary Lindsey and Gordie Sampson and was first single from Carrie Underwood's debut album, Some Hearts. As I said, I hardly know this song so I've looked up the lyrics. While I thought about it I just want Jesus to take control of my computer and my desk – to be in charge and keep me calm and aware of my attitude at work.


The lyrics are kind of sad but they are about a woman driving on Christmas Eve with her baby to see family. She had a tough year and a lot on her mind. She wasn’t paying attention and spun out of control in her car. She was so scared she threw her hands up in the air she cried out to God…..


Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own


I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel


God rescued her as she humbled herself and cried out.


God sees our heart and knows our intentions to grow in Him and to be more like Him God is faithful to honor our cry for help. So I'm encouraging myself in the Lord and realizing that God isn’t finished with me yet. There is always hope. He loves us and never gives up on us. God is God and we are his daughters through Christ Jesus. While we were yet sinners Christ died for us. Remember that His mercies are new every morning.


Lamentations 3:22-23
Because of the God’s great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.


Ezekiel 36:22.
It is not for your sake, O house of Israel, that I am going to do these things, but for the sake of my holy name, which you have profaned among the nations where you have gone. It’s because He promised He would and His integrity is at stake. It was an eternal and unconditional promise and their worthiness is not at issue.


Ezekiel 36:26
I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.


Char


My prayer, "Lord don't let me wander in the wilderness due to complaining, please set me on the right course and renew a right spirit within me. Set my feet to dancing and my heart to rejoicing. Help me to have an attitude of gratitude no matter what my situation.